- listen to my nonsense -

10/10/24 - 1.37pm

started watching the crow road! i love watching random peter capaldi old scottish television in terrible quality off youtube hehe. it's actyally really good though, obsessed with how rory (pcap's character) will appear in prentice's thoughts by just strolling in off teh side to say something slightly sardonically. hey! did you just shag my girlfriend? like eyeagh buddy he did lol. its really good though. kinda got gothed up today & am gonna go to the mall & buy some cheap halloween stuff for funsies soon.

9/10/24 - 7.13am

today is october ninth which is PJ HARVEY'S BIRTHDAYYYYYYYYY YAYAYYAYAYYAYY YIPPPEEEEEEEEEEEEE i love her so so much she has been fundamantela to my development as a musician & my taste in music & culture as a person & even how i think about gender i just love herrrrrr i admire her so much & of course her music goes fucking hard :explosion: :explosion: :100: :100: today also marks two years since i played my first ever gig not at school :) i was so excited to play on pj's birthday hehe

^^ i think she's about seventeen here. she looks so young...... i have a friend who kind of looks like that when she plays guitar & she sings bert jansch songs angelically

8/10/24 8.17am

it's apparently lesbian day today !! hell yeagh i love being a dyke i love lesbianism. today i gotta do some painting & i think i'll have a go at putting together some tradgoth type outfits.... maybe something for graduation?? idk. i was gonna put some chains & stuff on my jacket but i forgor lol

7/10/24 5.36pm

currently watching x files season one! on dvd as well i found a box set second hand :) i'm really liking it so far it's really cool. i love mulder he's so pathetic & everyone bullies him but he's a great character hehe. i really like scully too, she's a great character every time she's like 'don't be ridiculous mulder its not xyz aliens of the week. however the evidence is most compelling SO I GUESS. JUST THIS ONCE' & then next ep is the same thing hehe. BUT i especially liked her when he came out of that air shaft she was crawling through & was all dishevelled and bleeding a little bit uhmmm who said that.

also scully having her extremely uncomfortable date being faced with her own feminity & expectations around that and what that means for her as a woman in society as mulder sits in his office looking at a drawing of bigfoot big naturals is like. a constrast for sure. i'm not sure how much of a comment on scully being forced into trying to have a social life, the pressure to marry & get kids, vs the whole 'wild woman' thing they have going in that episode is but. yeagh. like scully is expected to 'have a life' & though mulder is sort of. looed down upon for not having one you sort of get the impression everyone things he's a write-off already but with scully theyre like 'well surely a nice young woman such as yourself.....' etc etc. & like when she says she must have 'missed that phase' of wanting to be an astronaut as a kid... idk something to be said about trying so hard to be feminine in conventional ways, i can imagine her being slightly envious of tomboys as a kid, not letting herself want to be an astronaut cos thats for boys. even though now she works at the fbi. assigned to the crackpot cases no one else wants to deal with cos they think she's got a clear head.

something to be said also about how its always mulder who actually sees The Thing of the week, it's mulder who gets abducted in like the second episode, he's always the one who catches a glimpse of the Thing before scully gets there - he already believes & everyone derides him for it so his account will prove nothing to anyone else, they might be inclined to believe scully but she never gets there in time

also 'i want to believe' is much sadder within context than i thought. augh.

^^ obsessed with this gif also. stare straight into the camera white boy

what i plan to do in here & rambling - 7/10/24 11.02am

anyways i'm really liking doing this even though its felt likeive spent teh last three days staring at my computer screen lol. i really like doing the graphics & stuff & i like how things are looking so far, like i honestly thought this whole thing would be a damn lot uglier but turns out you can do old web without it Looking like its from 2009 lol. like as much as thats a vibe i have something different in mind hehe. i still gotta make some dividers i like that are contrasting like the ones i have are. okay & set up the musicking page but that also requires actually finishing my music which im currently procrastinating by doing this site lmao but yeagh. & i gotta figure out how to do boxes in the main i think i might just do them the purple box colour not the dark red. & then i dont need as many dividers either. & it gives it some breathing room for the stories on the oc page as well if theyre all in their little boxes. i think i know how to do the boxes but i dont want to send this back to formatting hell lmao

i have a bunch of ideas for the capaldiverse page as well but really it just feels like something i needed to have, seeing as i spend so much time thinking about that guy & his characters lol. i'll at the least have a log of what of his i've seen, & pictures of him i like hehe

this page is gonna be like a blog & yes i do have a tumblr but thats irrelevant this one feels a lot more intimate cos you just knowwwwww im talking to myself in here. & possibly jordan also cos theyre the only one looking at this probably hi bro hehe. OH i was also gonna put up my essay on classical influence on doctor who & how the concepts of the hero have evolved over time cos that lowkey is a banger essay. but i might wait til ive got it marked & stuff & also edit it down a bit?? idk i downloaded it as pdf but idk if you can put a pdf on here, like insert it, but also theres a lot. & a lot i only put in for assement criteria yknow.

anyways yes i am typing all this directly into the html editor. chaotic neutral writing program i guess lol. the typos are there for je ne sais quoi. < - about the extent of my french oh shit why are these words greem on okay if u type an arrow it tries to code something lol.

okay testing testing - 7/10/24 9.47am

nonsense nonesuch nonesuch palace (no longer in existence) there was a record label called nonesuch too but i can't remember who was on it. fun fact in medieval-renaissance times (and possibly later) in england when a castle or manor house or whatever was being demolished they dismantled it piece by piece & then rebuilt it using the same materials in a newer style. also hallways werent invented until like th emid 1600s before that you just had endless rooms & galleries leading into eachother. & secret passages & whatnot as well probably.